I write this sitting on the couch with peace that saturates and seems to almost press in on me. Today hasn’t been extraordinary. I could even find things to complain about like the cloudy sky or my contacts that don’t seem to want to stay in today. I still physical hurt from the aerobics class and my heart has been broken again today by another family member who has decided they don’t want to be part of my life. Still nothing can separate me from the love of Jesus, and so circumstances is not fuels this peace.
Everybody is back in town from the summer, and we have been able to welcome and make friends with so many new people. I am so encouraged by the renewed passion for prayer and also seeing so many guys leading and stepping out. God has been just pouring out his spirit on this place and so I am one of the many who is waiting in expectation to see the hand of my God work. I like following this God who goodness is constant and who is always at work even when I don’t see it.
It’s been said before and I’ll take the liberty to say it again. Following this God who is constantly good and who is always at work does not equal an easy life. This past two weeks has been hard in some ways. Following Jesus, like a lot of you guys know, means not yielding to your own desires but instead yielding to the desires of God. Something that I’m learning is that me letting God’s desires shape my life does not just affect me. Also, it does not just affect others in ways that are always warm and fuzzy. Like yes it’s cool when following Christ means I get walk into class and tell someone that there is this God who loves them. It’s not warm and fuzzy, though, when family decides you following Christ means you’re not respecting their desires for your life. Their response is not always pretty. I know it’s because they love me so much and they have values that they view as good and right. It’s scary for them for me not to pursue what is in their mind good things. So I’m in this hard place again and I know that this story has played out in tons of Christians’ life. So again I sit here with this overwhelming since of peace. My God is always good and he is always working to complete what he started. Love you guys!
